Enchantment

Just what is the meaning of life?

We live to die.
When we're on the brink of death, we're dying to live.

We sleep to wake.
We wake to sleep.

We lie to gain favour.
We gain favour, take it for granted, and lie again.

We stumble to make mistakes.
We make mistakes to stumble.

We love to live.
We live to love.



Ironies should just burn in hell.

I've just shoved my pessimism up your ass again :).






The Ego Bruiser.

A thought struck me as swiftly as a hurricane... that when you grow too attached to something, you also intensify the risk of getting emotionally hurt at the end of the day.


So what would you do if you find the strings that tie you to another getting pulled tauter and shorter? For me, if I see the need to, I will start distancing myself. I guess that's how my indifferent attitude to most things come about.


It is not a wise notion to rely on someone or something in entirety. Always good to be able to stand steadily on your own feet should someone unexpectedly let go of your hand.


Oh well.





I'm attacking a tub of Ben & Jerry Phish Food for dinner. Hmmm. Tastes better than rice and dishes anytime.




And I caught Over The Hedge with my lover the other day. It's an engaging cartoon I would say so if you're a sucka for cartoons you shouldn't miss out on this one.

Loving the baby porcupines and Hammy.

But I will soon dispel all details from my brain like I do most movies. Hmmm.

Am I really that hard to please?

Virgo + Leo


Earth + Fire = Lava


In coming together with Leo you’ll have an early realisation that their boldness and strong ego may steamroll your modest and prudent mind. Leo is strongly required to be sensitive to you by not going beyond certain bounds of power and control. You also exert power but in a less forceful manner and have a tendency to work behind the scenes and in a more exacting and self-sacrificial manner. Your key focus is on the service and excellence of your professional and general duties. Leo isn’t concerned so much with the detail as with being first, wielding power and winning accolades in the “game”. They like to dominate a situation rather than remain invisible.




Virgo, you have a tendency to look at microscopic details which, if directed to the proud and arrogant Leo, could set sparks flying. Leo is rarely wrong (at least in their own mind) and is usually beyond reproach. You will have to carefully assess how to constructively criticise your Leo. There are some strong connections financially between your two star signs, as Virgo falls in the second or financial sector of Leo, whereas Leo falls in the twelfth or loss sector for you. This equation on a financial level isn’t too balanced, and you must be careful not to give too much in the way of material assistance as well emotional energy to the Leo character, lest you feel taken advantage of.




Though you may feel uplifted by the warm radiations of Leo in the bedroom, the same can’t be said for Leo’s experience of Virgo. You seem too prim and proper for the bombastic and dramatic Leo, who prefers a roaring time sexually to your more modest display of affection. Your compatibility with those Leos born between 23 July and 4 August will shine a light on your otherwise mentally-orientated states. You can feel warmth and camaraderie with these people and friendship flourishes as a result. Your strong combination for a more enduring relationship is with those Leos born between 5 and 14 August. Jupiter will bless you and provide you with a true match made in heaven. It’s best to avoid those Leos born between 15 and 23 August, as their Mars co-rulership may create lots of problems, disputes and backbiting.

Okay, this comes rather late, but better late than never, right?




We celebrated Amber's 19th and Angie's 20th birthday at Suntec's Siam Kitchen on Friday evening. The concept of the restaurant is something like that of The Rice Table, nothing spectacular in my opinion.





However, the fantastic company, bimbotic gossips, incessant laughters and not forgetting THE GREAT LIGHTING which aided in churning out all the fab pics that we took more than made up for it.





As expected, I had an upset stomach the next day due to consuming too much spicy food. Heh. I love those damn spices, but evidently, my digestive system doesn't.


I have decided that I will train my children from young to eat spicy food, so they won't have to suffer like me and be forced to refrain from a lot of delectable food in this world.


If you know me well enough, you'll know I'm extremely picky with food. I will only eat chicken, beef and fish. I don't fancy seafood, pork or other exotic delicacies which one too many seem to relish and appreciate. Eee.

Okay, why am I even talking about myself? Slap myself for being a tad too egoistic. Ha.





I and the birthday girl who kept piling food onto my plate! She wanna feed me till I'm fat so she can laugh at me later. So evil!




Gena the nanapoo. Ok how did that come about.




Hi - la - rious!




Angie's innovatively wrapped up present. Cute spelling errors!





Wrappers ripped open to present a gleaming Guess watch with no end to its blings.




Amber with her diamonte Guess bag!


Gettin lazy, so here's a picture of us girls to end off, xoxo.




*More pictures here.

Simple words, but they hold a magical meaning shared between two: I love You.





Happy 8th Month!





I come in here with the motive of typing this entry before the clock strikes 12 and the default date changes itself to the 23rd of May.

22nd is a good date because it is a very special date. It is a very special date because someone makes it special. That someone is special because he is very dear to me, and to be very dear to me, you are considered exquisitely fortunate.

=D

Today.

Lunching at Jack's Place, being a CRA mentor, lounging in the jacuzzi pool, swimming in the pool enveloped by the drizzles of a tranquil night, heating up in the steam room, all these have formed an integral portion in my memory bank.

Thank you for your understanding, care and concern towards me for the past 8 months. We started off only liking each other, but I'm really glad to feel our likeness blossoming into love. Our love isn't as dramatic nor as intense as the love that romance novels often portray, but it is stable and reliable enough for me to draw comfort from or seek solace in.

You have played and is still playing a big role in my life. You make me want to change into a better person and so far, no one else but my parents and religious teachings have succeeded in inspiring me to do so. Although I so often grumble at you when you start nagging at me, I know it is your way of expressing your care and concern.

I may have been with you at first for the wrong reason; an angry and hurt girl on the rebound. Such a feeble and weak foundation to build a relationship on, but today, I will tell you that I have no regrets. You are a great boyfriend to me and I feel happily contented being with you.

You mean the world to me =D


and


I love you so!

Haha. I had Advanced Accounting project after school today, but it ended early because we were stuck at the FIRST question and couldn't carry on. What a fruitless meeting!

Anyway, my hon didn't turn up at school today because he overslept, but I just have this feeling he slept pass the lecture on purpose. Oh wells.

It was still early after the project meeting and suddenly, an ingeniously spontaneous idea formed in my head.

So I hopped onto a bus that brought me to TM. I bought Famous Amous cookies which he had previously wanted to eat and which I disallowed because he was down with sorethroat, and Chicago cheesecake from Coffee Bean.

I took a train down to Kembangan despite the ridiculously humid weather. On the journey there, I smsed Ryan to say that I was on my way home.

When I reached, I decided to hang the paper bag on his gate, go hide in one corner and call him to spring the surprise, BUT I COULDN'T SEE ANY HOOKS ON THE GATE. ='(.

Time for Plan B. I ran to the other side of the house and called him.







Me: Hey dear!

Fat Blob: Hi dear. Reached home already?

Me: Yeap! Hey, come outta your house and turn right. You will see something on the pavement.

Fat Blob: You're outside right? I know you were lying abt reaching home. If you're at home, where got so noisy one? Huh? Why you never tell me before coming over? Huh? Blah blah blah blah...

Me: Oei. Can you just faster come outside? You will see something on the pavement. Hurry! Anyway I'm not outside your house. I'm reaching home already. *pathetic attempt at a lie, I know* Eh, my hp's gonna die! Low batt!

Fat Blob: I knew it. I know you will come over. I know you're at my place now. Hey, I don't see anything outside. Blah blah blah...

Me: *perspiring buckets of sticky swear* OEI will you just come outta ur house, turn right and walk towards the pavement? You will see something there la!







And I hung up cos my handphone was suriving only on one bar of battery life. I hid behind a bus parked along the pavement and sneakily watched his movements from there. Haha!

I ducked my head out of my hiding place cos I thought he wouldn't be looking, but he was right there infront of me!

"HAHAHHAA! Caught ya! You're so silly to hide behind the bus. I bent down and I saw your feet! HAHAHAHHA!"

Zzz.

Yep, that's the gist of my day.

Take a look at this: http://stephanie1314.multiply.com/

Girl, you are unquestionably dumb. You wanna use my pics, but you let me catch you red-handed.

Yes, she viewed my Multiply with her own account, and when I saw MY face as her display picture, I was like, since when did I change my name to Stephanie1314?!

Can people just stop abusing my pictures or at the worst, my identity? Weren't you people bornt with a face or personality of your own?


SIAN.




Next please. Anything new and fresh?

Here for a short update, since I'm bored right now and my dearest hasn't replied me on MSN.

Seriously, why haven't I maneuvered my ass to a salon, sit it down on a vacant seat and watch as the hairdresser snips off my Rapunzel-liked mane?

I have 24 hours a day but a trivial thing like a haircut always, always slips my mind. I shall get my friends to remind me soon. So guys, do you hear?


Well, anyway, some casual snappies uploaded from my digi.
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A Japanese chopstick through my hair. All haired-up for... 2 hours of school? Bimbo! I hear you cry.




Waves when I let it down.



I spent Vesak Day with my hon. We went to town for shopping and food. I burnt a big hole in my wallet but am now the proud owner of a pair of cute shorts and a to-die-for halter. Oh, did I mention that I need a new wallet? AND, I did bring along my digicam, but me, being the Klutz that I am, forgot that I had it on me.

So, no pictures. Bawls! I want more pictures with him to add to our memory bank. But sorry, I'm such a klutz :(.



Cheesecakes and marshmallows,
Gracie.



What was I doing with that hand? Chinese dance? SNORTS.

One & only photograph taken yesterday. Bummer.

I've been sick all week and haven't felt my best for days. However, I've been feeling very loved by dad who came back early from the office to bring me to the clinic, mom who nagged at me to down those horrid medicine (she hasn't done that for years), Jun Hsiang who bought me papayassss and Anisah who showered me with a surprise gift!


Yes, she wants me to put up the pictures of her surprise gift on my blog, so I shall do as my best friend commands. Heh.



She wrapped it up in newspaper. So environmental-friendly of her. LOL.





It's a My Melody shower cap with a personalised handwritten note attached!

"May this shower cap keep your long raven black hair dry and silky on the days that you're simply too lazy to wash your hair :)" - Extraction from the note

SO SWEET AND THOUGHTFUL! I'm melting in my best friend's love (for me, or my black hair? hmm...)!

I totally love it, small as the gift may be!

How can I ever ask for a more thoughtful and sincere bestie other than you?!

Anisah, this is for you. I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX! YOU BIATCH! PUI. HAHAHAHA! And stop asking me to wear the shower cap and take a pic of myself and post it up here! Argh.




I can't bear to use it yet so I pinned it up on my noticeboard. Heh. Stop staring at that white piece of paper that reads "STUDY! Uni is your goal!". It's my personal form of motivation but it doesn't seem to be working, because I always forget to look at it!


xoxo, Gracie

Been tagged by Leanne.

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

So, here goes:

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Had a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? Yes
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? No
26. Made a snow angel? No
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? No
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident? No
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? No
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
45. Sang karaoke? Yes
46. Sucked your thumb? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? No
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? Yes
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? No
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn’t take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
63. Been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? Yes
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone’s name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
72. Performed on stage? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? No
78. Choked on something you’re not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? No
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? No
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
88. Dumped anyone? Yes
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No
92. Dated someone more than once? Yes
93. Have/had a dog? No
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? No
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? No
98. Shot a gun? No
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? No
100. Written a love letter? Yes

I am down with sorethroat and flu :(. It is already bad enough.






But this deliciously gratifying chocolate froggies are aggravating my illness. I feel worse than I did in the morning.






I've been spending without a second thought. That day I dropped by TM after school, in a very bad mood, and got myself a bag. I felt a teeny weeny bit better after. Got myself something else today, too. A hundred plus gone within 2 days, bullshat.

I need to curb my spending. Ryan should be glad to hear this from me haha.

And I've been sticking well to my papaya diet plan. Didn't feel them boobies growing bigger, though :(. LOL.







When I feel rich again, Davidoff Coolwater Woman will be mine. I absolutely dig its refreshing and rejuvenating scent. Or anyone of you who would like to get it for me, you are most welcome. Heh.



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Elections are over and not surprisingly, PAP emerged the winner with a national vote share of 66.6 percent. But they didn't fare as well compared to the 2001 polls, where they received 75.3 percent of votes. Then again, 2001 was a really bad year for Singapore, what with the recession and terrorist attacks.

If I were eligible to vote, it would undoubtedly go to PAP without a second thought as I'm not really impressed by Opposition candidates such as SDA's Steve Chia. I mean, taking nude pictures of his maid and being charged in court for it isn't exactly a morally correct thing to uphold. What a pervert! It really makes one question the credibility of the Opposition.

Anyway, I was laughing while reading the papers today. The part where Mr Low Thia Khiang of WP said that he would remind Mr Goh Chok Tong, everytime he sees him, about the $100 million he had promised the people of Hougang, to invest in the upgrade of the aging estate and to build lifts that stop at every level.

The thing is, the $100 million belongs to the Government, not the PAP. It is the people's money, so even if PAP did not win in that constituency, Mr Goh Chok Tong has to uphold his promise of upgrading Hougang. It makes sense to me.

Enough of politics.




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When I look at my mom, it awes me to think that we're alike in so many ways. One thing in common: Our tempers.

"Such an irony that you can't stand your mom when the both of you have disagreements, because your character is so like her's." That was what Ryan told me once.

Today, my mom was practically throwing a bitch fit at everyone, the maid included. She was being so totally unreasonable and throwing a tantrum at the maid that I had to apologise on her behalf.

When I asked for her help with a CRA tutorial question, she flared up at me because she claimed that the fonts were too small and she couldn't read the question properly. "Come on, I wasn't the one who typed the tutorial questions, why are you screaming at me?" I was boiling inwardly.

Her outburst today made me think of the countless ones I have had ever since I was young. I won't deny that I am spoilt by both my parents. Whatever I want, I get, if it's within their means. When I don't get my way, I sulk, and they relent. Most of the time anyway.

I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to grow up, get married, have kids and then vent my frustrations on my children just because I had a rotten day. I don't wanna set a bad example for them and have them grow up to be like me. Most probably, my grandma had a hot temper too, that is why my mom grew up thinking that it is alright to have a hot temper, which in turn moulded the hot-tempered Grace today.

A vicious cycle, you call it.

But I'm learning to change.

I'm not saying that my mom is being an unappealing role model to me. In fact, she's the best mom I could ever ask for. I understand she's going through a rough period with her job and not to forget, MENOPAUSE.

8 months ago, I would have yelled at her, laid it all out on the table and fought it out with her.

Now, I see the need to change this horrid and spoilt temper of mine.

I'm too old now for childish antics.

You know, whenever I bare my heart and soul to you, tell you my problems, my unhappiness, whatever that's bothering me, and all I yearn for and hope for is to hear a word of comfort from you, you always reward me with the opposite instead.

Something caustic which doesn't make me feel better at all. Instead, it makes me feel worse.

What I need is a listening ear and a comforting friend in you. I don't need another Dad or another Mom.

What I need is a Boyfriend to be there with me through my unhappiness in life.

I don't think I can ever find that Boyfriend in you.

I tried, but I failed.

You tell me that you are upset because I am easily upset. It makes me feel like I can't be upset or don't have the right to be. I feel pressurized at times to accept things as they come, without a single complaint or a single tear, although I would have liked to express my emotions.

Because I will always remember your words, because I am afraid of what your reaction might be.

There are many times that I wanna share with you my troubles and concerns, but I change my mind because I know you have nothing good to say to me, and you never will.



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What a laid-back day at school! An hour of Apel class only, can you imagine? I've finally achieved the timetable that I want, and Bank Treasury Management is the opportunity cost. Yep, I dropped that elective.

*Phew

I can work on pulling up my GPA now without having to vex over 4 subjects. Now, it's cut down to just 3. I can feel the stone in my heart getting lighter too!

That's a good thing.



Scandalous scandalizations scandalizing in the library.


Oh my lord! Save this girl!

"Ohmygawd I look deprived." Yasmin admits with a sigh of resignation.

Oh well. *pats Yas's shoulder* ;p.

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I have no affinity with movies. Grace and movies. Movies and Grace. Grace loves movies. Movies love Grace.

That don't sound right. Grace and movies just do not click.

Ryan and I wanted to catch Eight Below at TM today after school, but the earliest slot we could get was 9.40 pm, and the time then was only 3 pm.

With no movie to catch, and pinched toes backed by blistered heels due to the look-nice-but-isn't-nice-to-wear (this is an understatement) vintage pumps and utter laziness to walk to CS to check out the time slots, I limped to NTUC.

And came home, duly satisfied, with a papaya, two cartons of milk and fruit juice.

Ryan told me to only get one papaya for the time being, cos he kept insisting that the papayas at NTUC aren't very pleasant to the taste buds. He promised me a delicious papaya from the market soon. He is just like an uncle la, papaya also wanna nag. HAHAHA. Just kidding hon, you know I love you ;).

Don't laugh at me, but I'm gonna start on The Papaya-Milk Diet tonight. I hope I can keep to it and may I see results soon. Waha!

I took this picture before school today.

I bet Sam's gonna scream "WHAT! Late for school today and you still had the time to take a self shot at home?! Idiotic peanut!"

Well, I didn't bring my lateness upon myself. Bus 3 did ;p.

Below is part of mine and Sam's MSN conversation last night:




Gracefully ;
i need to trim my hair soon

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
go shorten it abit lah

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
yours is ridiculously long

Gracefully ;
heh

Gracefully ;
but its my ideal hair length leh

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
so long lah

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
it can enter your ass crack!

Gracefully ;
cannot yet

Gracefully ;
hahhah

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
soon lah

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
haha

Gracefully ;
im gonna trim it soon

Gracefully ;
or actually i can just ask one of u to trim it for me

Gracefully ;
lol

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
hahaha

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
we will snip it all off

Gracefully ;
wahahahaa

Gracefully ;
evil walnut!





Yeap. I need a hair trim. Badly.

Gena got herself porcupine hair. Sam got herself bangs. Me?

I'm gonna get myself a trim.

I wish I could say I'm getting myself a drastic haircut, but I can't bear to part with hair that I've taken light years to grow and maintain! Err, so a trim it will be for now. Haha.

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Will papaya make tits grow? What about milk? Is it scientifically proven, or just an old wives' tale? Does anyone know the answers?

And also, what makes tits grow??

Angie ate papayas consecutively for weeks/months (?) and when I asked her, she said that her boobs indeed grew bigger!

For others, they said they achieved zero results. How disappointing.




Gracefully ;
LOL

Gracefully ;
u walnut brain

Gracefully ;
wahahahah

Gracefully ;
size of a walnut

Gracefully ;
walnut tits

Gracefully ;
:D

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
walao

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
nvm

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
walnut bigger than peanuts!

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
peanut boobs!

Gracefully ;
lol

Gracefully ;
im a B cup leh

Gracefully ;
u A cup

Gracefully ;
AHAHHAHA

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
HURMPF

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
i just ate a papaya today!

Gracefully ;
one papaya wont mk a diff la

Gracefully ;
lol

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
fine fine

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
i shall eat another one tmr

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
wahahha

Gracefully ;
yes

Gracefully ;
lets eat papayas all day

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
and soon our shit will smell like a papaya

.+. hAmMiE .+. i l o v e s c o o b y
and peanuts for u

Gracefully ;
hahaha shut up




Yes, we are that crappy online! All our child-likedness (not childishness, heh.) flow out every night on MSN. There is no way to curb our nonsense. Help.

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I totally dig these cream puffs! Finger lickin goodness!! I LOVE DEVOURING THEM! Shat. Gluttony is taking over me.


And to end off,


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About the Ginger-o-rama, it's all over now. Or at least, my friends and I are willing to put it behind us. I hope the grudge that Ginger has been bearing for donkey years, ever since good old sec school days can be forgotten.

I mean, why can't we just make peace and move on with our lives?

Please don't ask me for her blog URL, because I will not disclose it. She has deleted the deceiving blog entry that had brought a couple unretrievable pain and sadness, and all for nothing.

To all those reading this, please think twice before you publish untruths in your blogs, or anywhere else for that matter. It could result in dire consequences and unnecessary heartbreaks.

Everyone tells lies, that is true. However, when you lie to hurt the people around you, that is definitely INHUMAN.

So all my readers, please kindly stop tagging anything regarding Ginger on my tagboard, because this matter has already reached a close, and will never be raked up again, I hope.

:)

Happy Labour day, lovelies and hunnies!

Mom and I had planned to pay Gramps a visit and then hit the malls, but I got kinda lazy and pointed out to her that we'll end up as sardines in a can anyway. Bad choice to go shopping on a public holiday, agree?

Yesterday, I had one of my most enriching sessions at church. The topic touched on was Love.

Once upon a time, I was on the phone with Anisah and I asked her "How do you know when you're in love? Are you supposed to feel all lightheaded, like you're floating on cloud 9?"

She gave me a reply choked full of the myriad of sensations she experienced when she was very much in love. Well, She IS still madly in love with her significant other, like bees to honey and pumpkins to honeydews and all that crap ;p.

"When you're falling in love, you just know it." She had said matter-of-factly.

In my current relationship, I won't deny that there were times when I questioned myself, "Am I in love with him or in like, and if so, how do I know it's for real?"

Since I had no answers to the questions posed, I decided to 'let nature take its course' and let love come in its own time. Very smart, eh? The rudimentary solution to an unsolvable mystery.

However, my flaccid theories were proven wrong yesterday.

The misconception that I had all along about love was that love is uncontrollable. Falling in love is a natural process, it can't be forced, or so I thought.

What I have learnt and adopted for a day and a half and still counting, is that love is a matter of choice. It is something that we can choose to have. You don't wait to fall in love with someone, you choose to, you stick by it and that is where commitment shines through.

Love is a matter of conduct. You cannot love someone with just words and tongue, but to wholly love, you bring in actions and in truth. You do it, and not just feel it.


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The love I feel towards Scooby is storge, which means natural affection. When you look at Scoobs, it just comes naturally to you to wanna love him, protect him and keep him safe.







Phillia, which means friendship, is what I feel for Anisah!







or ??
Eros means sexual attraction. HAHAHA. I'M JUST KIDDING (for the slower ones who haven't realized this is just for laughs).






And lastly, it will have to be unconditional love, Agape, what God feels for us and generally what most mommies lavish on their children :).



New Greek words which I learnt yesterday!