Enchantment

I am down with sorethroat and flu :(. It is already bad enough.






But this deliciously gratifying chocolate froggies are aggravating my illness. I feel worse than I did in the morning.






I've been spending without a second thought. That day I dropped by TM after school, in a very bad mood, and got myself a bag. I felt a teeny weeny bit better after. Got myself something else today, too. A hundred plus gone within 2 days, bullshat.

I need to curb my spending. Ryan should be glad to hear this from me haha.

And I've been sticking well to my papaya diet plan. Didn't feel them boobies growing bigger, though :(. LOL.







When I feel rich again, Davidoff Coolwater Woman will be mine. I absolutely dig its refreshing and rejuvenating scent. Or anyone of you who would like to get it for me, you are most welcome. Heh.



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Elections are over and not surprisingly, PAP emerged the winner with a national vote share of 66.6 percent. But they didn't fare as well compared to the 2001 polls, where they received 75.3 percent of votes. Then again, 2001 was a really bad year for Singapore, what with the recession and terrorist attacks.

If I were eligible to vote, it would undoubtedly go to PAP without a second thought as I'm not really impressed by Opposition candidates such as SDA's Steve Chia. I mean, taking nude pictures of his maid and being charged in court for it isn't exactly a morally correct thing to uphold. What a pervert! It really makes one question the credibility of the Opposition.

Anyway, I was laughing while reading the papers today. The part where Mr Low Thia Khiang of WP said that he would remind Mr Goh Chok Tong, everytime he sees him, about the $100 million he had promised the people of Hougang, to invest in the upgrade of the aging estate and to build lifts that stop at every level.

The thing is, the $100 million belongs to the Government, not the PAP. It is the people's money, so even if PAP did not win in that constituency, Mr Goh Chok Tong has to uphold his promise of upgrading Hougang. It makes sense to me.

Enough of politics.




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When I look at my mom, it awes me to think that we're alike in so many ways. One thing in common: Our tempers.

"Such an irony that you can't stand your mom when the both of you have disagreements, because your character is so like her's." That was what Ryan told me once.

Today, my mom was practically throwing a bitch fit at everyone, the maid included. She was being so totally unreasonable and throwing a tantrum at the maid that I had to apologise on her behalf.

When I asked for her help with a CRA tutorial question, she flared up at me because she claimed that the fonts were too small and she couldn't read the question properly. "Come on, I wasn't the one who typed the tutorial questions, why are you screaming at me?" I was boiling inwardly.

Her outburst today made me think of the countless ones I have had ever since I was young. I won't deny that I am spoilt by both my parents. Whatever I want, I get, if it's within their means. When I don't get my way, I sulk, and they relent. Most of the time anyway.

I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to grow up, get married, have kids and then vent my frustrations on my children just because I had a rotten day. I don't wanna set a bad example for them and have them grow up to be like me. Most probably, my grandma had a hot temper too, that is why my mom grew up thinking that it is alright to have a hot temper, which in turn moulded the hot-tempered Grace today.

A vicious cycle, you call it.

But I'm learning to change.

I'm not saying that my mom is being an unappealing role model to me. In fact, she's the best mom I could ever ask for. I understand she's going through a rough period with her job and not to forget, MENOPAUSE.

8 months ago, I would have yelled at her, laid it all out on the table and fought it out with her.

Now, I see the need to change this horrid and spoilt temper of mine.

I'm too old now for childish antics.