Enchantment

Hello bloggie, long time no see.

I've been insanely busy with school. What with projects, assignments, lectures and tutorials stacked heaven-high, it's a wonder I even have space to breathe. I feel like I've been cut off from the world and existing only in my tiny sphere of books and Rachie (my proj mate, playmate, eating kaki, bitching kaki and an all-around great energy booster in my current life).

I haven't had a good sleep in forever. Good sleep meaning long dreamless sleeps undisrupted by mechanical alarm clocks. I dreamt of doing an endless Audit assignment the night before I was to hand up the actual assignment. I dreamt of my boyfriend at least twice this month and they were not good dreams. I dream of everything and anything except sweet dreams.

I haven't been out and about, I'm aching to fly. My weekends were burnt due to rushing projects and assignments. I foresee even more weekends to be burnt. I have no time for myself, friends and boyfriend anymore.

Hey you, the one who reads my blog regularly. You know who you are. I don't know, but things are so different now. I no longer feel the same around you. Could it be due to my hectic schedule? You tell me. I can't recall the last time we shared a passionate kiss or a tender hug. (not that these are things you would want to do with me anymore)

Even if we do meet up, we are both doing our own things respectively. We may be beside each other but the distance between is long enough to travel to the moon and back. When was the last time we actually had a decent proper conversation with each other? Or talked on the phone into the wee hrs without bearing to put down the receiver?

Our meet-ups now are filled with a silence that can only be brought about by distance. Silence and more silence, it leaves me feeling empty and numb.

I've lost that feel with you. Is it only temporary? You tell me darling.

Everything can change, circumstances, surroundings and even you yourself. I could change too but I've never thought of leaving your side.

So please, before this deteroriates any further (you know it has been deteroriating since i-dont-know-when but it feels long enough), please let us work something out together so we can be just as loving as before.

Actually, I know the core of the issue but I highly doubt it's something you would like to hear. There's nothing I can do to change it, only to try to understand the situation. (dammit, but i don't understand at all.)